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05 August 2013

I try so much to let myself into your life. Maybe I'm just trying to crash myself in because I'm frustrated. I'm frustrated of being on the outside. Of being the 'guest'. I thought we were more than that. I'm not sure if sometimes I tend to be emotionally independent when I don't want to because you want me to be so. You want to teach me how to suffer the consequences. And I will willingly deserve all the punishment if it makes you happy. I will learn how to self-comfort, self-soothe, be less selfish and not impose. But despite all that, despite all that unhappiness, I will find the time to look for you without looking for you. I will buy you medicine and place it at your door and hope for you to discover it soon and get well soon and I'll be okay even if you do not thank me for it. Maybe you want for me to slowly fade away. You want me to see that I'm no longer the girl you'll go distances for. I'm no longer the girl who deserves your comfort. I'm no longer the girl you write notes to and placards for and calls her your princess whilst you shamelessly embarrass me on my chauffeured ride to school. We have grown. But it doesn't mean we have to grow apart from each other and learn to be independent. We've stopped talking like we were long-lost friends and you'll sit in the car to tell me stories and I'll listen with my eyes full of hope.

31 July 2013

It's August!


Just got back from a super filling supper and am in a current state of revelation that we are already in the month of August. Gosh. Seems like not too long ago that I was still celebrating my birthday this year. Honestly wish that time would slow down and not pass so quickly just cos I have so much to do and too little time to make things happen.

Have an upcoming trip to Hong Kong of which I've yet to plan the itinerary, just bits and pieces, here and there. Then, I'll pretty much be done for leisure trips for the year I guess. (excluding impending work trips) Trips are so expensive these days. Our flight alone to HK during National Day weekend is $600. $600!!! I can think of better things to do with that $ like contributing that to Amelia's Baking Funds.

May August be filled with lots of baking. My westie friends are lucky people with new bakes that I stuff them silly with, especially J, the boys and Char. I spent 3 hours in the kitchen at 3am last night rearranging my entire kitchen. I'm currently obsessed with organizing everything in my kitchen, also because I'm trying to make space for my new kitchenaid and my (going-to-purchase) espresso machine. That'll prob. cost my another 2k. I don't even shop for apparels anymore because I'm spending all my $ on groceries and food and equipment. If only I'm as particular about my room as I am about my kitchen in terms of organization lol.

August goals: Draw, paint, bake, coffee, latteart

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Why do girls whine? Is it because guys just generally like the whiney sort of girls (urgh) or they just think it gets them what they need and want? Even if you want to whine, at least whine about rational stuff like when he forgets a certain something or cancels on you, whine about it. If you want to whine about minute extravagant stuff, I will slap you. (i swear) But I'm pretty sure we're not even friends.  Whining like a princess - huge no-no. You are not a princess unless you ask Disney to cast you in a film :D

18 July 2013

Dear _ ,

Love is not about putting up a front. Love is not about acknowledging the other party's relationship solely in name. Love is so much more.

Love is slow, steady yet gives you a rush to the head. Love is about creating sparks. Love is learning to talk with your hearts yet being able to talk about anything underneath the blanket of stars. Love is affectionate. Love is being able to touch, giving hugs sparingly and excessively, planting kisses. Love is about sharing. Love is wanting to share everything and being a tad bit too excited about sharing. Love is about listening and exchanging laughs. Love is knowing how to tickle. Love is about raising your shoulder and carefully guiding a crying face to your shoulder. Love is knowing how to comfort. Love is saying things and meaning them. Love is keeping promises. Love is stealing glances in the midst of a crowd of friends. Love is wanting to be constantly beside each other. Love is never wanting to be apart. Love is not bearing to not talk despite angry selfs. Love is knowing how to put the angst aside and resolving issues. Love is saying things to appease the other. Love is never ever going to bed angry. Love is being able to sieve out deeper emotions from words on the surface. Love is knowing what the other party does not mean to say. Love is not caring what others think. Love is about priority. Love is not egoistical. Love is thinking about the better good of things. Love is about small reminders of love. Love is about daily morning hellos and bedtime goodnights. Love is sending hearts. Love is being sickeningly romantic. Love is wanting to make the other happy. Love is knowing when they're not. Love is wondering if she is hiding in her room crying. Love is not hanging up when she's crying. Love is wanting to help wipe away the tears.

M.

23 June 2013

Des' 90's Karaoke Party




Des had her own Karaoke Home System so we spent the entire night belting out songs. By 'entire night', I meant from 10pm to 5am LOL. Everyone left with really hoarse voices. This is the boys deciding to be boyband background singers and enjoying themselves at that.

Theme was 90's but I was told it was 'Retro' by Jesse -_-


Hands down best dressed



T'was a good night!

Leaving for a short trip to Bintan tmr. Pls let the weather be good!

21 June 2013

ReadyToWear


A new kid on the block, ReadyToWear brings you a unique blend of high street fashion and classic pieces that will never fade with fashion trends. Founded by three friends, each with their very own individualistic taste in fashion, you can be sure that ReadyToWear will undoubtedly present you with a wide variety of apparels that will help you achieve that simple and effortless look everyone wish to have.


ReadyToWear kicked off their launch with a few basic tops and bottoms and threw in a few statement dresses like this geometric printed dress you see above. I especially love the bright colors on it and the way it complements with the asian skin tone. 

 

Another one of my favourites is this Annabelle Cut Out Dress. Inspired by Victoria Beckham, this dress is extremely appropriate for office wear. Throw on a structured blazer and a pair of black heels and you're reading to dominate the meeting room in this outfit.


Not only that, ReadyToWear is also having a promotion with L'Occitane! Spend and receive!

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Happy Shopping! (:

19 June 2013

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Grey

A haze is brewing outside and everything's grey.
I wonder if people continuously lie to themselves about certain needs and wants in their life. It would be nice to have someone finish your sentences, hold meaningful light-hearted and contrasting deep conversations depending on the time and location, ask without having to ask. Would like to think I've grown stronger emotionally in terms of letting certain things slide and deleting them completely. I let it go and start afresh. You'll want that.

Do soulmates exist?

02 May 2013

May Update


Hello everyone, Happy May!

So much has happened over the past 4 months this year. Some days, they are fine and dandy, some days not so much. I have been pushing myself less this year in terms of cramming up my hours with endless teaching and trying to give myself more space to do things that I like and spend more quality time with people that matter. I am kinda glad that cooking, baking and coffee has somehow taken over my life by storm this year cos they give me a strange sense of comfort. It has not been easy, especially when I sense that the other people at home are not too happy about it. Their words can hurt sometimes but I'm learning to be strong and shut them out. Basically, kitchen affairs are just tiring in my household due to certain reasons.

I'm thankful for friendships that I've forged a tighter bond with because being the person I am, I'm pretty much emotionally reliant on J and close friends. Seeing the fact that I don't blog here very much lately, my inner emotions have to pour out someplace else and I'm thankful for the people who have listened and advised upon. Mostly, I just need to ramble. I need to ramble because I can't bottle up my emotions and they tend to lead to my migraines. I've been suffering from a few cases of migraines this year, about 6-8 times already. Some days it just hurts so bad and they are 10 times worse when I'm in a lesson. My migraines get pretty bad because at times they blur my vision and there isn't such a thing as 'sleeping it off' because it doesn't go away.

I have so many things to do, to plan and I always feel like I'm procrastinating by doing things that are not as important aka known as backing up my entire hard drive and doing countless photoshop because my Mac is going to die on me any time now ): Not looking forward to that day. 

I've learnt so much through reading articles and watching educational videos on YouTube. I learnt how to let go of certain issues, to stop being concerned and bothering over stuff that have no importance in my life. It's true. The less you care about things that aren't important, the less emotional baggage you carry. To be around people who are positive and those whom you're comfortable with. Watched tons of baking videos and coffee videos on the internet and they have helped a lot. It's almost as if I'm going for free classes by being at home!

Another thing. I'm always hungry.

28 January 2013

How it feels to be 25.


Woke up, got out of bed with a aching back. Decided to do some baking just because I find comfort in the kitchen, even though the outcome wasn't what I had hope for. Got changed, called for a cab but the cab didn't arrive even after 15min. Slightly irritated that I had to walk to the main road in a maxi dress, high wedges, a bag full of stuff and a chocolate almond pie that I have to hold upright cos the handle wouldn't work. Went for class with Ashley and we talked about Shellie-May sitting beside her piano. Walked to Char's and at 7pm we were doing our makeup, curling our hair, just like old times. Had a lovely dinner with the girls and had so many surprises in a day that it feels surreal. Apparently, you can still feel this way at 25.

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"You can't be brave if you've only had wonderful things happen to you"

They say life is full of ups and downs. At quarter life, I can safely tell you that it's true. If all you experience in life is ups, you haven't experienced life at all. You will have your days of being frustrated, be it at yourself or your loved ones. You will have your days of pure bliss and then wonder why it cannot last through the year. You will spend days bickering, quarreling, having arguments. But through these, you realise things you haven't realise before. You will make new decisions based on these. People will always ask you "when are you getting married?" If you feel worried that you haven't had these thoughts yet, don't. Marriage is for life. You will know when the time is right. People get married for different reasons. Some get married to start a family straight away, some get married to spend time together with his/her partner in a new home filled with new experiences. Don't let the choices of others around you get to you or affect you in any way.

Be kind, be generous, be thankful.